Hello everyone - it is nice to be back after the horrible, intrusive scam - without my dear son who has - hopefully -sorted it out for me with the help of a brilliant BT, I think I would abandoned my computer for ever.
I have had several quiet days (as I am still in the process of gradually changing my drugs) because I was afraid of another attack.
Looking round my sitting room the other day I thought about just how tidy I am. This may be a fault or an asset, depending upon your point of view. I have been like this as far back as I can remember. My mother was the same. So is my tidiness learned behaviour?
My principal carer, J, is exactly the same, so that when she leaves after her morning hour my bungalow is exactly as I like it to be. Should I worry about this almost obsessive behaviour on my part I wonder? I am only happy when everything is in its right place (even on my trolley/walking aid)!
My dear son, who has been wonderful helping me and sorting everything out on my computer this week, came yesterday. It was pouring with rain (we are having sunshine interrupted by frequent heavy, thundery showers). He came dashing in as he always does, conscious of not leaving his invalid wife longer than necessary. He came into the sitting room with his tablet, plonking his wellies on the carpet by a bookshelf. I (aware of the fact that they might be wet/muddy underneath) waited until he was absorbed with a phone call (he is still working through things to do with my scam) then got out of my chair, put the said wellies on my trolley and wheeled them into the bathroom where there is an easily wiped floor!). He didn't realise what I had done until he was ready to go when he began wondering where he had put them as they were not where he thought. We had a good laugh about it (you will realise from this that he has not really inherited my 'tidiness' habit).
So what is it that makes some of us like this and others not at all like it? I am truly aware that it is almost an obsession but I am afraid at 90 I am unlikely to change. The fact that J is the same is something of a comfort (she and her partner live in an open plan flat).
So where do you fit in this conundrum? Are you obsessively tidy or are you happy with things 'out of their usual place in the scheme of things' or are you indeed obsessively untidy? I know it doesn't matter in the giant scheme of life. All that really matters is that we are comfortable and happy with the way we live. And when I look at how people are having to live in war-torn Ukraine at the moment, I feel almost ashamed at how I feel. I would love to know what you think.