Wednesday, 2 August 2017

Grey Day

I am having a bit of a hard few days for some reason.   Anyone who has been in my position will know that these things creep up on one and descend like a black cloud.   It is not helped today by it being a pouring wet day and rather chilly with it.

This morning's Writers' Group was enjoyable and for a couple of hours I felt more like my old self.   But now I am home, it is too wet to take Tess for her walk, although she is itching to go (I know when I open the door and show her the weather she will come back in like a shot.) 

For a quick lunch (I was late in as I called round at the Solicitor's Office to check on progress) I did myself a jacket potato in the microwave and stuffed it with cheese and butter and a sprinkling of salt.   I have to say that it was delicious and very satisfying.   I followed it with strawberries and cream.   Scottish strawberries have been superb this year and I have had them almost every day. 

Because my spirits are a bit down I had a Snickers Bar with my coffee - something I would not normally dream of eating.   Consequently I enjoyed that too.

It is now twenty past three, still pouring, Tess's eyes boring - there's the beginning of a poem there.

30 comments:

Mac n' Janet said...

There will be days like that, but there will be better days too, hang in there. A Snickers Bar is always helpful

Agatha said...

thank you for sharing this as always our honesty is so valuable to us readers. Grim days and ok days, good days and bad days. So important to look after yourself and respect yourself by cooking and simple treats like chocolate.

Marilyn Bennett said...
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Rachel said...

You are not alone Pat, which I hope is some comfort.

Jules said...

Sending love. Days such as these are so hard. Tomorrow is waiting. X

Marilyn Bennett said...

Sorry I deleted my last comment. I made a spelling mistake and I didn't know how to edit it.
I love reading your blog although I have not commented before. You are a very brave lady and when sad days come you must treat yourself kindly. If it's a snickers bar then that's fine, whatever cheers you up a bit.
My sister-in-law is still recovering from losing her dear husband (my brother) just a few months ago and your words echo hers. Every day is a new day and she says she is getting stronger and braver to do things on her own, the first time in 50 years, and I hope you are too.
I send you a hug (long distance from Western Australia) and hope you are feeling better soon. x

Gail, northern California said...

I understand what you're saying. It's discouraging. You think you're doing so well then, as you said, out of nowhere comes the black day and you're back at square one....the dismal weather and trip to the solicitor no doubt contributors to your overall mood. Thinking of you, and wishing you better days.

busybusybeejay said...

I think you have done too well.You have ben soooo upbeat but you do need to grieve.Life will be on the "up" now but you will have down days.Allow yourself these and then look forward to your new start.Lots of love to you Brave Lady .Barbarax

donna baker said...

Love you Pat, and a big hug.

Billie said...

I'm so sorry about the loss of your husband. I lost mine two years ago and I still have moments. You are staying busy with friends & family, which certainly helps. When sunshine returns you will feel better. I know it works for me. Wishing you a better dsy.

Barbara Womack said...

I'm sorry to hear that you're struggling today.
I think of you often and know that lots of others do as well. I hope that the knowledge that you have folks sending warm, loving thoughts your way does something to lift your spirits.
Much love from the Valley.

Simon Douglas Thompson said...

The Scottish strawberries Asda sell have been, by supermarket standards, superb

Joanne Noragon said...

Pat, remember, we all love you. Keep eating strawberries and Snickers.

coffeeontheporchwithme said...

Thinking of you, Pat. I think a Snickers bar is very appropriate. I'm not sure if you have these tv commercials in the U.K., but there are a number of them where a character in the commercial is portrayed by quite an opposite kind of person and after they eat a Snickers bar, they are more "themselves" (and revert back to the regular character). The message is, you're not you when you're hungry.
So, on these dull, grey, difficult days when you are not "you", eat a Snickers! Hugs from Ontario. -Jenn

Sue said...

Rick is desperate for his walk but it's too hot here to go outside. He will have to wait for things to cool down later this evening. Chocolate is a good thing to have when you're feeling down.

Frugal in Essex Tania said...

I can't begin to imagine what you're going through but I know how grief can creep up in you at the strangest of times. Don't feel you need to pull yourself together, grief is a process you need to go through. I agree the weather is awful, bring back the sun.

Heather said...

It's been a wet and dreary day here too, and I know so well how you are feeling. I have been in a state of limbo for so long waiting for a possible date for completion. At last it seems as if it might all be done by the end of this month. I do hope you will soon have good news too.
There is nothing like a Snickers bar to lift the spirits and at least the strawberries were one of your five a day! Tomorrow is supposed to be a brighter day - let us hope so.xx

Yorkshire Pudding said...

LAST SUMMER AT SOUTH DYKE

Still pouring
Tess's eyes boring
Into me as if to say
Aren't we going for a walk today?
Our country lane
Is awash with rain
When it will be dry again?
The microwave pings
The baked spud is done
The kettle sings
Where is the sun?

Derek Faulkner said...

Well if it's any consolation Pat, it's been a very wet, windy and chilly afternoon here in Kent and not due to finish till early morning and I have no Snicker bar to eat either.

Tom Stephenson said...

I would imagine that this weather affects all of us negatively, but your bit of sky is bound to be darker than ours right now. It will get brighter Weave. I can guarantee that.

Sue in Suffolk said...

Horrible weather here today too.
The cat - who has a cat flap anyway - sits by the back door wanting me to open it, so I do and she looks out and then quickly comes back in again. She's done this 3 times and give s me a look, obviously its my fault the wind is blowing a hooley.

I hope your Ukulele playing went well the other day and you remembered the notes.

Tomorrow WILL be better - I'm sending positive vibes to you from Suffolk!

angryparsnip said...

Everytime you talk about your weather I can not believe it, It is summer Oh My Goodness !
it is hot, monsoon here.
All I can say it tomorrow will be better.

cheers, parsnip and thehamish

Countryside Tales said...

Thinking of you. It takes time, as you already know. Hoping the sun shines for you and Tess tomorrow. X

justjill said...

Tomorrow. Ah tomorrow. Things never stay the same. xx

wherethejourneytakesme said...

Hope you will feel brighter tomorrow. I had an urge for a Lion bar the other day but no idea where to buy one if they still make them!

Chris Elliot said...

Nothing wrong with some "chocolate therapy"!

John Gray said...

Chin up dearheart

The Weaver of Grass said...

As usual, Yorkshire Pudding has provided the poem in answer to my prompt!

Thanks everyone for the boost.

John "By Stargoose And Hanglands" said...

Strange the way that the weather seeps in our souls and changes our moods. Lucky though that things like chocolate and toasted cheese provide an efficacious antidote!

Sok Sareth said...

It's been a wet and dreary day here too, and I know so well how you are feeling. I have been in a state of limbo for so long waiting for a possible date for completion. At last it seems as if it might all be done by the end of this month. I do hope you will soon have good news too.

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