The whole issue of leaving or staying in the European Union has brought to the forefront of my mind the issue of Britishness. I believe we have been in the EU for forty years or thereabouts. So for a moment I ask myself, do I feel British or do I feel European?
Then, yesterday, I saw Trooping the Colour with HM The Queen and Prince Philip, both still incredibly gracious and upstanding at such advanced ages. I always find the whole ceremony impressive. I don't consider myself to be a monarchist particularly, but then I look at the alternatives. I hardly need to mention surely, Donald Trump and the possibility that he might get into the White House. Or the harsh regimes of some other countries - would they be a better alternative? I come to the conclusion that we are a Democracy here in the UK with a wonderful figurehead. Surely this is the best of all possible options?
Then I switch on the late news on the television and see the dreadful football spectator violence. They spared no punches in the filming of it on BBC - hitting one another with chairs, kicking people on the head once they had been floored, throwing unconscious young men into the river. Much of the violence was orchestrated I understand. I wonder what I would have thought had I had a son of an age to be there and to be involved. I certainly was not proud to be English after that display of violence.
And so the scales still waver. Is it better to be a European or is it preferable to be British again? We are not given any facts by all the so-called politicians pontificating across the country at the moment. If they are asked a question then, with the usual cleverness of a politician, they manage to never give a straight answer.
All I know is that after the spectacle of Trooping the Colour followed by the crowds as the Royal Family appeared on the balcony for the fly past I felt I was lucky to live in such a civilised country. Then the football violence certainly did not make me proud - it just made me sick.
What is the answer? Is it just me, or does the whole country feel like this?