Monday, 27 March 2017

Beautiful weather.

Why is it so much harder to bear sadness when the weather is beautiful, the Spring flowers are all in bloom and the sun is shining?   When I drove into town this morning and went into the Car Park the rooks were building and making a terrible noise (and a similar mess, dropping twigs left, right and centre, which I presume they suddenly considered unsuitable for their nests).

I have Sciatica and can only hobble about.   My Physiotherapist says this is because I am not allowing myself to really grieve and am therefore tense.   How can I grieve for the Farmer, who suffered so much over the last two weeks and then fell asleep gently and is now at peace?  Sadness and relief for his sake are my two overriding feelings.

My Physio also says that writing every day is a good way of helping myself, so I am blogging again - not sure whether that will be every day or not, we shall have to see.   But for now - thank you to you all; you have helped me along the way.
 

Sunday, 26 March 2017

Thank you

Just to say thank-you to all of you who have sent me love, prayers and comments over the last few days.

Wednesday, 22 March 2017

The Farmer

A brief note to say that The Farmer passed away
peacefully and gently in hospital this evening.   I shall miss him terribly but would not have wished him to be here any longer with this terrible disease.   Thank you to you all for your thoughts and prayers over the past few weeks.

Tuesday, 14 March 2017

Latest update

The news is not good for the farmer today.   It seems highly unlikely that they will be able to give him any radiotherapy as it seems the tumour may well be too far advanced.   Luckily he does not seem to have altogether understood the situation.   A farming friend has just called in to see him, so there will be a happy hour of farming talk.   Thanks to you all for your comments - much appreciated/

Saturday, 11 March 2017

Support system

I was having coffee in town this morning with my dear friend W and we were discussing the great value in these circumstances of having a good support system.    I certainly have that - a whole host of good friends, family and all of you in Blogland too.   Thank you most sincerely.

Wednesday, 8 March 2017

Update

First of all can I just say how touched I am by all your messages on the Farmer's health.   You will never know just how much they mean to us and how they are helping us to get through it all.

To update - we have been to see the Specialist today.   The brain tumour is a Grade 4, the worst kind, and is inoperable.   The farmer is on high doses of steroids and goes next week to discuss having Radiotherapy.

He is in good heart and manages to feed the hens each morning, and the wild birds, and take Tess for three short walks each day.

He sends his thanks to you all too.

Saturday, 25 February 2017

Update

I continue to be carried along by all your good wishes - I can't tell you how much they help.
,Just to give you an update.    The farmer has had a small hole drilled into his skull and a biopsy taken.
How long it will take for results apparently depends upon what kind of tumour it is.   In the meantime he is home, rather weak and only able to do very little.   Each day he tries to walk a little bit further with the dog and he is now feeding the hens.   He is on reducing doses of steroids and his language has stabilised to some extent so that although he forgets words he is nothing like as bad as he was.    He sends thanks to you all too.

God bless you all for thinking of us.

Thursday, 16 February 2017

Thank you

Sincere thanks for your thoughts, prayer and good wishes.   They are helping tremendously.

Friday, 10 February 2017

Thank you.

I have just put on my computer for a moment and I find almost ninety lots of wishes, prayers and positive thoughts from all of you around the world.   I just can't thank you enough - the power of blogland - and the knowledge that I have so many virtual friends is so comforting and touching.   Thank you all so much from us both.

Thursday, 9 February 2017

The Farmer

For those of you who know, I can't thank you enough for your thoughts and prayers - it does help.   For anyone who has not yet heard = the farmer has a brain tumour.   He has not been well for some weeks and was undergoing tests.   It has now been confirmed that he has a brain tumour.

He has been in James Cook University Hospital in Middlesbrough, where they have looked after him wonderfully.   On Wednesday he came home, with masses of steroids, and we are both due to see the Specialist on Wednesday when we shall know more about what is happening.  

You can imagine we are both totally stunned by the news but are bearing up as well as we can.   I do sincerely thank you all for your group hugs, your thoughts and your prayers.   They are helping.