Just sometimes these days I am on the verge of losing my confidence. It surprises me when it attacks because I have always been full of confidence but nevertheless it happens.
My mobility is not brilliant because of arthritis in my ankles, although luckily they are not particularly painful. My balance is not good enough to walk without a stick. I don;t hear well but have hearing aids for both ears which make my hearing perfectly adequate. Other than that I am fine. But some mornings I wake and wonder whether I can rustle up the energy to get going and get on with life. I have a loving family and some very good, loving friends but, when the chips are down you are on your own.
The answer I suppose is to go into Sheltered Accommodation. But I always think of that as 'the beginning of the end' and have no intention of doing that until I really have to - if at all. Days like today - when I feel like this - are luckily few and far between - today's brought on by lots of jobs in town this morning, a heavy bag to carry, no space in the Market Square so a further walk into the Car Park added to a general feeling of lassitude.
A good night's sleep,theuite company of friends tomorrow and I shall be back to normal. Now it is time for a walk with Tess before it gets dark - another thing that keeps me going. Warmer day today so quite pleasant for walking. See you tomorrow.