One thing which has happened, certainly to me and also to a lot of my friends and colleagues, during lockdown which has now gone on for almost six months, is that as well as being cut off from the world, we have also suffered mentally. A case in point was yesterday when I ventured forth to the Garden Centre. Braithwaite's is by far the most professional garden centre around and also one where one can get help and advice. Bedale is around fifteen miles away and a road I know well, so I decided to go and consult Mr Braithwaite about what plants to buy for my patio project. I did not enjoy the journey. I was nervous in the car and felt as though I had never driven before. I was so lacking in confidence that when I got home I thought about stopping driving - I know the day will come.
After thinking about the plants I decided that two were wrong and needed changing so what did I do? There was no alternative to getting in the car and going back this morning. Bear in mind I can only walk with sticks and then not at all well. So I bit the bullet and set off apprehensively but I had not gone far before I realised that my nervousness of yesterday had disappeared and much of my confidence had been regained. Lockdown has affected us all in so many ways and it will be a long time before we can be back to normal.
Now all my plants sit here waiting for the patio to be finished - hopefully it will not be long before they can go in. I started out with seven conifers but now I have sent two back and in their place I have chosen a group of three different coloured grasses to be planted together as a group and an evergreen flowering Hebe. I have also added a euonymous with a variegated leaf - the whole should giv e a much more cheerful effect. Tomorrow is another day so onward and upward I say.