Sleeping last night was almost impossible for me - I couldn't stop my brain working overtime. At half past three I got up and went to my computer and 'played' with it for an hour and a half. When I went back to bed I did eventually fall asleep and then of course I slept late. But it didn't matter. My neighbour called before I was dressed because she had heard my sad news and soon after she went another friend rang and I was talking to her for an hour. And so it was lunch time.
I have been overwhelmed by everyone's comments and kindness - they have certainly helped me through the day. I have heard Tess many times - heard her basket creaking, heard the 'clack' of her claws on the kitchen wood floor - and many's the time I have glanced at where her basket used to sit to see if she is alright. And although for the last few weeks she has slept most of the time and been unusually quiet, the house seems strangely quiet and empty without her here. But I know I have done the right thing and now I have to pick up the pieces.
It has not been a day when I have missed walking with her - she would have hated it too - it has poured with rain all day. I had a mountain of ironing to do and have done a bit here and there throughout the day (I can't stand for long at once) meaning that there is just a duvet cover to do in the morning. There are two programmes I quite enjoy on the television this evening (a weekly documentary on Mevagissey in Cornwall and the fishing industry there) and a programme on Ben Fogle in the Wilds. Neither programme needs a lot of thought (good because at present my brain is a bit scrambled) but does pass the time. Last evening my son kindly came round to sit a while and we watched University Challenge together - we both enjoy it and always have a contest to see how many of the questions we can answer (he always wins - I say because his brain is younger than mine!) I managed seven last night - in most cases they were questions the teams got wrong - mainly because they were too easy I think - questions about natural history (trees, birds, flowers and the like) they always seem weak on.
Sometimes there is a contestant whose knowledge is incredible and last night the chairman of one team had a very impressive tally of answers - she rarely had to consult her three colleagues. Such a brain - one wonders where such characters end up at the end of their university life.
I shall try to stay awake until my normal bedtime tonight and if I do then I think I should be assured a good night's sleep.