Monday, 12 March 2018

Doldrums

This is not a day when I feel cheerful - for a variety of reasons.   Of course the anniversary of the death of my dear farmer is fast approaching (March 22nd) so that doesn't help.

The party I gave for my son's sixtieth on Saturday was a delight and it was so lovely to see all the family together (apart from Dan in China) but when I got out of bed on Sunday morning my legs just would not work.   It took me a long time to get going and today they are still not brilliant.

In addition today has been a pouring wet day - it has never stopped.  I have forced myself to keep doing jobs rather than sit about, which would only make me feel worse

I did a load of washing, I took some rubbish up to the tip, I bought some needed stationery and came back and after lunch (and taking Tess for her second walk of the day) I sorted out various utility things - gas and electricity, council tax for next year and the like.  All jobs which needed doing but which I had no inclination to do.

Now it is tea time, I shall feed Tess and then myself and then before I know it it will be time to watch Mary Berry!
 

32 comments:

Toni said...

Sounds like it might be "Call a Friend Day" for you. Doldrums are best shared with a good friend and a cup of tea.

Isn't it weird that the older we get we find that our bodies become living, breathing barometers. Legs can predict the weather!

Hoping that the sun shines for you!

John Gray said...

Keep busy, that's what I do......I'm peeing every 2 hours now so things are looking up !!!

janipi said...

That first anniversary is always going to be a difficult one. Lots of treats and good friends will get you through. This weather is playing havoc with my poor old bones. I think a heatwave is long overdue.

Starting Over, Accepting Changes - Maybe said...

Grey days can always bring us down.

Terra said...

I am sorry to hear this is a rough day for you. I am going through a bit of a rough patch myself, as I miss my husband. You are wise to keep busy and doing tasks, that is what I usually do too.

Librarian said...

I truly admire you for plodding on and doing all those jobs instead of giving in to self-pity and having a lazy day - I would so fully understand if you did that, too! Maybe in spite of it being a lovely day, Sunday was taking its toll on you physically. You mentioned that it had taken you and your granddaughter 3 hours to prepare all the food. I guess most of it was done standing up at the kitchen counter; no wonder your legs refused normal service this morning.

Rachel Phillips said...

The comment I left earlier today on the previous post applies. You have more energy than me!

Bonnie said...

Staying busy helps the time to pass and gets jobs accomplished as well. Enjoy Mary Berry.

Sue in Suffolk said...

Good to get boring jobs done - then you'll be able to be out on the next fine day

Sue said...

We all need some warm sunshine to get us out of these doldrums.

Derek Faulkner said...

I've had a similar day Pat. Rained on and off for most of it and I'm so desperate to get stuck into the garden jobs that are mounting up. Possible snow showers for the weekend again as well.

Judith said...

I admire your spirit. I'm just 78 but widowed for ten years now. Thank you for your blog and your inspiring example.

angryparsnip said...

Some days are just like this.
When I need to do something I don't want to I put the timer on to see how much I can get done in 30 minutes.

cheers, parsnip

Countryside Tales said...

Grey days are hard, aren’t they? You do wisely to keep active. It’s good advice.

Theresa Young said...

Sounds like you had a wonderfully full day with family. That takes a lot of work, hosting family, but it sounds like it was grand. Stay busy and keep warm. So sorry to hear about Tess. Hold onto her as long as you can and then see her home.

Joanne Noragon said...

My cat knows he gets his box cleaned, new water and food before I start my breakfast. He feels important. Keep on looking forward; spring is really soon.

Hildred said...

As usual I ended up reading catch-up blogs, and thought what a delightful event your son's birthday party must have been. My eye caught the potato pancakes and cream cheese item, and the others sounded delicious too. So glad that Tess is feeling up to snuff!!

Tom Stephenson said...

Oh, dear Weave - as they said in my student days, don't let the bastards grind you down! I do so wish I was closer - geographically - to you. I would love to pay you a visit. The first anniversary is always going to be hard and there is nothing we can do about that except express out love and support for you, no matter how ineffectual. Keep on trucking, you sweetie.

Marion said...

A dreary day deserves tea and books for comfort! I just ran across your blog. I'm so very sorry for your loss of your beloved. Loss hurts very much, I know. My heart is shattered.

I lost my husband of 45 years abruptly to the drug Meth last June. He's not dead, though...just gone. He almost killed me, out of the blue...strangled me, gave me a concussion and beat me badly. I'm still in shock, suffering ptsd. I got a permanent restraining order, so there's no communication...this after being together since the age of 14. I'm perplexed why at age 64 he decided to toss away our marriage and life...I've suffered a crushing loss, but received no comfort. I wish he'd either died or just finished me off. My family and friends have deserted me, for the most part. I don't know why. The pain is unbearable, unbearable. I no longer understand life or my place in it, but I'm hanging on... xo

Alphie Soup said...

Your son's 60th birthday party sounds like a good time was had by all. You've made a very difficult but wise decision about Tess. It's a pain literally and metaphorically when your mobility is reduced; as Librarian said you were on your feet for a long time with the party preparation.
You will cope with the dreaded 22nd as only you know how Weaver Pat, but you will certainly cope in your own way.
Alphie

Cro Magnon said...

Weave. I've just read Marion's comment above, and it made me realise how fortunate most of us are; even with our wretched aches and pains.

thelma said...

You have a whole lot more stamina than most of us Pat, the party would have been a very exhausting time, something you pay for afterwards. Rest and don't brood, plenty of friends around you to take comfort from.

Heather said...

All that standing making preparations for your son's birthday party wouldn't have helped your legs. You can pat yourself on the back for seeing to all those tiresome but necessary tasks and taking Tess for her walks. The 22nd will be a difficult day for you but be kind to yourself and take things as they come. So pleased you have lovely family and friends to support you.x

Linda Metcalf said...

It takes a lot out of us when we entertain and have so much extra that we aren't used to. Take care of you.

Granny Sue said...

The party sounded lovely, such a lot of love in the preparations. I am sorry you are under the weather but no wonder with so much going on the day before. About Tess--we had an older dog who developed a tumor and the bet gave us the same prognosis. He lived for another 3-4 years, quite happily and not in pain until the very last days. I am so glad we allowed him to just live out his life.

liparifam said...

My goodness, totally understandable! You were just exhausted. A rest day was much deserved and needed - I probably would have just stayed in bed and read and napped all day, lol!

coffeeontheporchwithme said...

It's not surprising your legs needed a day of rest after the busy day before. The first anniversary must have been very hard for you with many memories. Hang in there, turn to your friends and family for support. Thinking of you. -Jenn

donna baker said...

Big hug and a good foot massage is what you need.

The Weaver of Grass said...

Thanks everyone.

Angela said...

I'm sending good thoughts your way. The anniversary of loved ones death is always hard. I like to spend those days doing something something that reminds me of the person so it will feel like they're living on in a way. For instance, on the anniversary of my Aunt's death, I like to watch a few episodes of I Love Lucy because she's the one who introduced me to the show.

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